Last night I made a really big decision.
I did something that is completely out of my character.
I chose not to go to practice.
I chose not to run. I took a second rest day this week.
Please believe me when I say that I never don't follow my training schedule. I have followed it religiously since I first became a collegiate athlete. And the training schedule said to go on a 70 minute run. And all day, I had every intention of doing that.
And since the team meets up on Wednesday night (its not mandatory, but encouraged),
I went about my day planning to run at 8 pm with them.
Normally I run in the mornings, and I love it. But I had all day to sit and think.
And the reality is, I am really struggling right now. I love running, but I have overtrained. I have put so much of my heart and soul into it and not given my body enough rest.
And I'm paying for it now.
So last night, I experienced a lot of fear. Fear that was a combination of my own worries and the many conversations I have had with people lately... People who think I need rest. And I realized they are right. I needed physical rest. I needed mental rest. So. Instead of going to practice, my friend and I rode our bikes to get frozen yogurt.
And I sat there and ate frozen yogurt and watched the olympics. And it was exactly what I needed. And in a way it kind of killed me, too.
This morning I got up and ran an amazing treadmill workout. And then I lifted. And you know what? I loved it. I love it. It makes me feel so energized and alive.
But I'm learning a lot lately. And a lot is going on in my life.
And I want to spare the blogging world the details, but I need to make some changes.
I'm realizing that sometimes, less is more.
And I want to be the best runner I can be: for cross country, and track, and my life.
The overachieving part of me truly believes that to do that,
I have to push myself to the absolute limit.
And that's what I have done before.
If I have anything, its willpower.
This going hard or going home deal worked for a long time....
But now, to be the best, healthiest runner and person I can be, I have to cut down on my running a little bit. My training will change.
I shouldn't keep pushing myself to absolute exhaustion.
In the workouts I do, I will be motivated and push myself.
But I will do less.
And less is more!
And it's crazy difficult to wrap my head around that, but I know it is going to make me so strong and fast. Running a little less will make me faster? Yes, actually, it will.
So this is a newish season for me. And the next month I'm going to try this out. I'm working with my coach to transform me into a better runner, so I can win NWAACCS this year :)
I made NWAACCS bigger because its a link. You guys, there is way too much color and underlying.
You wouldn't have known!
And me deciding to rest does not mean I don't have the mental strength to be an athlete.
I am not a failure.
I am not a quitter.
I am being wise. I'm accepting advice, and I'm listening to my body.
And I'll still be training, but the word "training" is becoming redefined.
It's going to be tough. But I can do it.
"I can do all this through him who gives me strength!!!"
And one day, I'll kill it in the marathon. Or something :)